"In soothe I know not why I am so sad: it wearies me; you say it wearies you; but how I caught it, found it, or came by it, I am to learn." These are Antonio's words at the beginning of THE MERCHANT OF VENICE. As the Merchant, Antonio, I spoke these words in a drama school production in London when I was 24 years old. That's a young age to try to find all the subtextual meanings behind the Bard's words. Now, at the tender age of my later middle years I see the profundity.